Ahhhhhhh!! Please realize, it's not the future that scares me; just the decisions I need to make to get there. Until about 4 days ago, I knew what I was gonna do.. *ahem* "cosmotology college, starting three days after my sister's wedding" *end ahem* Now, I reconsider. One of the reasons to start at Josef's right now was in order to pay my way through massage therapy, and then probably St. Mary's. But then I sit down and THINK about it all, and realize that if I wait even two years to go to SMs, virtually everyone I know in the school will be gone. And further, there isn't that much of a market for 'beauty care' in that neck of the woods anyway, so not much moola. Plus, classes start at J's just after Ashley's wedding, I won't have made enough money to cover costs by then, AND Mom isn't too keen on my starting there just now. If I were to attend St. Mary's this fall, I would have all summer to work full time. I know, the arguments are piling up high.
And on the other side? I really really want to get into cosmotology asap cuz I would love it. I could have a whole year's experience before leaving home, keep close to my friends here. And, despite the 30 college credits I already have, I'd still need to be in SMs for two years. How much will I miss at home: Celine growing up, church acquaintances and activities (i.e. how will the choir survive? *teases*), all that.
And now I tell myself that I have to move on and do what I think's best all around; and STOP worrying how they will cope on the homefront. They will always manage, just as they did when the other kids left. That's all. okay. *walks off*
*peeks back* Help me, you guys. !!!!
2 comments:
LOL!! I'm totally with you, dear!! I HATE HATE HATE making decisions, big and small (but especially big ones)!!!!!!!!!!!! If I were gonna be here this year, I would totally advise you to come to SMC, but, as I'll be far, far away, there's no selfish motive there. :P
I've actually been VERY LIGHTLY (I mean VERY VERY lightly) considering massage therapy myself, just as an interest. I'd love to know about that, but I will say that my two years at SMC were two of the greatest years of my life. I was really apprehensive going into my freshman year because I was "behind" a year (i.e. back with the class I had skipped out of in sixth grade) and didn't know many of the people there at all. But I will never regret my two years at the college. If that makes any difference in your decision. :)
Do let me know what the verdict is when you reach one!
I have developed a process on how to make a difficult decision. I shall share it with you. This is the process:
1) Mull over the options for 14 days.
2) Construct two bulleted lists on all the options. Ya know, pros and cons of each.
3) Weigh both lists. Like, literally weigh the lists.
4) Discuss the lists with ten or twelve different people to see what they think. People with multiple personality disorders don’t count. Department store manikins don’t ether. Double amputee squirrels do.
5) Then eat the two lists right before you go to bed.
6) Wake up the next morning and flip a coin.
7) Walla! Your decision is made!
Ok, fine, this may not be a very scientific or rational way to making a decision. But it works like crazy magic!
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